hey you get out of my brain
told you once wont tell you again
youve given me alot of pain
cuz you wont get outta my brain
loved you once now thats a fact
now i want you off my back
wannna go & live my life
an forget all this trouble & strife
becuz ive got you outta my brain
.........unfinished (badly remembered song written by me age 14 or 15)
well, all my waking thoughts are of you
when i said i was going back - think it took you ummmmm 1 day to give yr mobile number, written on piece of paper, to a bloke to giv to 'object of yr affection/desire'....and from that night texting about.....well guess what?! yeah sex...
next day - you waited in, cuz couldnt go out. i turn up unexpected after 'guy' sent a picture of his knob! - you saying no sex cuz of whatever reason....soon as i left....you went & fucked him.
yeah - thats what lovers' do....and you say - occasionally you still love me....as i occasionally do too.
jeez louise! its like i'm there as a mixed up teenager again, and the person i want is looking at me whilst fucking someone else and winking at me.....saying 'ohhhhh this is sooooo good'
why do i let my self get used & abused like this
why am i ranting on about this
(subject to editing, deletion, and terminal downward spirals of heartbroken, cheated, abused, despair) - nothing new there then?!
oh yeah excuse - 'well if i cant have you'(?)
Sunday 20 November 2011
Thursday 10 November 2011
the end of time......love is dead
yeah, should've seen it coming but - hell, love is blind.
Me, still all fired up...but clingy, needy, moany...doing 'your' head in
Her: well 'maybe i never really loved you' - paraphrased from an actual text
have you seen her blog, see what she wrote?
fuck so now after our 'affair' and the total destruction of my relationship...self-pityingly...poor poor me :-(
trying to get a life back from the fucken wreckage..
her? had an argument with the boyfriend - (never moved out, ever?)decided to have a fresh start, got fish in a tank, a puppy, new car, was gonna move to a new house etc etc.
moans at me for wanting her saying - hey, chill out - stop whining, or wingeing...i can either try & go back.
see her for occasional, covert sex,
or live a very sad lonely life
ha ha ha ha - and i thought she loved me - could never live without me! I still in some ways feel like this but! i'd just be fooling myself if i thought any of the mad, bad, intense crazyness we had - if any of it were still alive. Nope its totally dead.
My next goal is to get this through my thick skull and REALIZE the truth of it.
Love is a fools paradise
love is not eternal
when one side goes out - the other weakens & eventually dies....mine is weakening, but not enough - i need to KILL it dead! before i can move on!
Me, still all fired up...but clingy, needy, moany...doing 'your' head in
Her: well 'maybe i never really loved you' - paraphrased from an actual text
have you seen her blog, see what she wrote?
fuck so now after our 'affair' and the total destruction of my relationship...self-pityingly...poor poor me :-(
trying to get a life back from the fucken wreckage..
her? had an argument with the boyfriend - (never moved out, ever?)decided to have a fresh start, got fish in a tank, a puppy, new car, was gonna move to a new house etc etc.
moans at me for wanting her saying - hey, chill out - stop whining, or wingeing...i can either try & go back.
see her for occasional, covert sex,
or live a very sad lonely life
ha ha ha ha - and i thought she loved me - could never live without me! I still in some ways feel like this but! i'd just be fooling myself if i thought any of the mad, bad, intense crazyness we had - if any of it were still alive. Nope its totally dead.
My next goal is to get this through my thick skull and REALIZE the truth of it.
Love is a fools paradise
love is not eternal
when one side goes out - the other weakens & eventually dies....mine is weakening, but not enough - i need to KILL it dead! before i can move on!
Saturday 20 August 2011
blooming heck, time flies!
Just a rant today.....been moderatly happy/sad past few weeks & months, lots of serious life-changes taken place......sure there's more to come.......that's it for now.
Oh yeah, writing this on Android phone.....technology is amazing!
Oh yeah, writing this on Android phone.....technology is amazing!
Monday 25 April 2011
The Supremes Baby Love
ok first song i could think of...i bought this from a leeds record shop cos a modette was way too embarrased to buy it herself, dunno why, tiz a cool song - video makes it look a squillions years old tho tbf. not really what i'm looking for but hey i just wrote a cool enough reason for it to be on my blog!
Sunday 24 April 2011
Friday 15 April 2011
Sunday 3 April 2011
Saturday 2 April 2011
Wednesday 30 March 2011
Tuesday 29 March 2011
Monday 21 March 2011
Friday 18 March 2011
Tuesday 15 March 2011
Tuesday 8 March 2011
http://kismethc.tripod.com/the original, pre-myspace, site for the band....some of it is quite funny maybe. browse around - enjoy....or despise - whichever
hi, here again - izzy, the cat, pissed on my bed so's i'm awake all night. reflection of the 1/4 year gone so far... mobile phones can be fun. sublime existence from mortalitys chains of reality. compounded emotion compressed continually crushed underground underneath my level of understanding. i'm scrabbling around in the never ending dark
encountering pain, the emotional equivalent of armaggedon - recurring repeatedly
never ever ending
ha ha this is not a poem more a solliloqy on events
encountering pain, the emotional equivalent of armaggedon - recurring repeatedly
never ever ending
ha ha this is not a poem more a solliloqy on events
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